Human Resources Intern

Dot

Hi guys, I think I'm done for. Don't have any friends, no contacts. Maybe I ruined all or never learned how to form. I work as a software dev in service based currently 12lpa with 5.5yoe. Went through college and most of the time unconscious on autopilot. I'm zero in relationships. Any kind of. Son, brother, friend, and maybe even a girlfriend had i got. Every relation, gets not formed, or gets un formed some way or other. I literally can't see ahead in my future. It's empty. Blank. I'm 27 M and with no contacts or connections, I don't see anything, as if I was blind. I don't see what I can do now. I think I'm done for. I'm scared as sht of people. Numbing myself kind of scared. I close my eyes, ears and brain as well. I used to do lot of terrible stuff when I was a kid, maybe it's all coming back now. I'm scared AF. Or maybe i like chaos, or maybe I'm a criminal, and I'm self destroying. I don't know how. My brother, friends, yeah I was terrible to them as a kid. They were not. I dumbify myself to get through the day. I think I'm turning into a stone. And yeah, sometimes I feel if i go out and tell the guy beside my room to reduce the volume and he doesn't respond well, i get cravings to beat the sht out of them. But I can't, cause then I'd end up in jail. But if i don't then I feel myself shrinking. Im scared AF. My teammates like me, I'm a good smooth guy there. My female lead and tester they like me as well. Nah I think I'm good now, they like me so I must be a good guy. Yeah. Goodnight. Yeah but i feel I'm living in some clothing among people. Why can't I connect with people. Did i betray them? Something is wrong.

Asking for referral

I'm Nikita, currently working with OneParachute a startup repository firm founded by VCs and based in Gurugram, India. As one of the first team members, I helped take the firm from ideation to autopilot. Now that the firm is running smoothly, I am seeking a more dynamic role within the ecosystem. Throughout my experience, I have enjoyed exploring creative and unique approaches to branding and marketing and would love to further my career in this field. I’m happy to share my resume also.

Bad Career Phase

My career in HR operations was going great. Very much on auto pilot. I had bigger plans for me and managed to go out of country for expatriation. It didn't work out really well. Dealt with security issues. (It was a third world country). I had to come back for sake of my mental health. Since then it's been one year I am trying to get into Indian market but it's really impossible. Tried paid services like professional Resume writing, paid profile highlight on naukri.com. applied to several jobs. Did LinkedIn optimization and activation etc. But everything is vain. I am so tired. Nothing is working. Never experienced this much failure ever in my life. Going through so much self doubt. Taking therapy as well. But after 10 year of career in HR I feel I might not be the fit to work every again. Need -Reffrals for HR Operations vacancies. - Career coaching experts. - people to talk to and motivate me. - someone who can teach some skills of job hunting? I will be happy to share my technical knowledge of HR which will be beneficial to understand some nuances of employment.