I need help to survive this industry
I've always been a hard worker and joined this industry as a passionate engineer back in 2023. You can go through my previous posts, but I've already been through 2 layoffs with a 7 month job gap in the interim and if you ignore my second stint which was for just 2 months, I was unemployed for about 9 months.
I finally got a job though and it's a good firm.
I have sadly had to face 2 paycuts already this early and have never gotten a raise or never been promoted too. So i don't know how that feels, my current firm is luckily doing well and I won an internal hackathon too.
I constantly go to work stressed, because my company didn't offer raises or bonuses this year with the stress of a layoff and sometimes wondering what's the point of building all these systems when I won't finally be there and this is taking a toll. I've moved for this job and...
Now, I have to interact with people and they can see my face. I look highly stressed often with deep eye bags due to work trying to survive this industry and upskill despite being on a break during unemployment and I tend to snap whenever I meet my parents as well whenever I visit them.
I stay alone and in a PG and a few people have asked me if I'm okay since they see the visceral stress in my face and in my office as well a lot of people including my manager have asked me to open up, be more free but it's becoming impossible especially with some a little bit of harsh feedback of me requiring to take more ownership despite pulling 16hr days when needed.
I deal with constant stress with my finances being weak due to my past layoffs and while I'm debt free, my dad being unemployed even now still further cuts through and further stresses me.
I don't know what to do with my life and how to reduce this and gyming or music don't help as well and many have told me that I look very stressed and have developed the "GenZ Stare". I feel like work is pointless with layoffs fear clouding me and making me anxious and very uncertain about my future making me wonder what the point of all this is sometimes and I need help to deal with this.
Please help me... This is how I exactly look according to a lot of people
This is not how jobs are supposed to be.
Put in only 10 hours max. Not 16. If there are tight deliverables, push back. You won't be fired immediately in case there's a negative backlash.
Get 7-8 hours sleep.
At this nascent stage in your career, don't worry about how to get a new job. Youth helps.
Keep searching for a new job.
I am doing this I feel like it's more of a mental battle with myself only maybe 2 days of the week it is that bad. On average it will be about 10 hours per day
16 hrs work on 1-2 days, and 10 hrs on usual days, not bad I would say. I think it might be due to your mental shakeup than external factors. Look around at others, how they go around enjoying the office work, or doing less work. If it is a big firm, they won’t usually fire without enough advance notice, so no reason to stay alarmed always. Layoff concern is for everyone, and is more for higher experienced, higher paid folks, so no need to let it get to your head. Find a hobby may be, go on a extended weekend trip etc
Yes i should try travelling and yes most of my colleagues are chill atleast aren't too stressed about the job but since i faced it twice it is getting into my head, trying my best to keep it together
