Going through tough phase

I am going throuh very tough phase in my life, I am very bad in taking decesion. because of that my life has become mess. I had to cancel my marriage as i was not ok with it. But only 20 days was left eveyone knows. now I am scared how people and family will react I can somehow handle it but it will be very difficult to my parents I feeling so much of guilt because of me they are going through so much I can't see them crying…Why God is doing to me?