Depressed with my job

So here’s the thing. I am working as a business analyst in a government project. My task was to perform in-depth analysis of how a screen works. Along with this I was also tasked with functional testing as well as storyboarding and organising walkthroughs with the development, testing, design and on shore teams. I am good at whatever I am doing and managers and seniors have told the same but on paper, it’s completely different.

When I confronted my manager regarding this he mentioned that I am doing everything that is being assigned to me properly but to get a good rating I need to be “innovative”. All my peers working as developers are also only doing whatever they have been assigned to do and are getting good ratings. His final statement was that if you are in a mediocre domain then your growth will be slow. If my work holds no value then why are you not releasing me from your project?

Recently, they have also tasked me to create LLD documents for developers. I feel like I am doing everything other than what a business analyst does and the worst part is that they are not even rolling me off. I have applied to multiple companies but not receiving a single call. I really don’t know how long I can survive like this. I am exhausted and completely dead from inside. I feel giving up everything.