
Anxiety before visiting home
I work in Mumbai. I have always lived away from my home. Whenever I plan to visit, I become anxious. I have wasted a lot of money because of this. I frequently cancel my travel plans. I used to do the same when I was in Bangalore. I would book flight tickets to my home and then cancel them
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What is the problem? You just mentioned that you cancel the plan without getting into the details of why?

No facility of work from home there. Frequent breakdown of electricity. Also my family used to be so toxic in the past because of alcohol.

I can understand that it can be frustrating some time when we expect a holiday but are scared of going to hometown due to unwanted stress. But trust me, enjoy the companionship till your parents are there, you won't regret this.
Call your family to Mumbai. Win win

I can't not call. I am living in a shared flat .

While I totally align with your situation, it is PTSD. The same happened with me because of some aggravated level of shouts and screams at home. I would like you to take a notebook, pen and whatever thoughts of trauma or past comes in your mind , write them and accept them. Try saying it to yourself while writing that nothing will go wrong from now. It won't happen in one day but gradually u will not fear visiting home. Write down if something comes back, how will you tackle it. Reach out to me, my DM is always open

Ghar daaru peeke ja

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