Adulthood 🫡

Ten years ago I wanted to live

a person born in 1999 is 47 years old today, let that sink in

Ten years ago I met my now wife and she said no when I asked her out. 😅

Ten years ago I was ten years younger!

Ten years ago I had a dream, lots of them😴💭

10 yrs is too long for me.

10 months ago, I had a good paying job, I had a happy family, I had a peaceful live, I had a girlfriend who had supported me through my last 7yrs of life, like my parents did.

End of 10th month. Lost my job for reason only god knows. All my financial twisted strings got cut loose when I lost my source of Income.

End of 9th month. Father's health got messed up out of nowhere. Had to undergo surgical treatment followed by active care for 3 months.

End of 7th month. Financial struggles started to creep in as there was close to zero source of income.

End of 5th month. Girlfriend's family started pressure of getting her married. 27F. I was trying more than my 1000% to get into a job, literally almost wanted to sell my soul if I could get a job, so that I can go talk with her family and handle the marriage pressure on her.

End of 4th month. I still couldn't get a job, her family couldn't wait no more. Idk what black magic they performed but she believed that she'll not have a happy life with me as I've been jobless for half a year now. She got engaged to another guy from US.

End of 3rd month. I fainted. Soo many important things got fcuked up. Lost someone who had been my peer support in places where my parents were unable to support me. Was my only love of my life, someone I had loved too much. Anxiety, self doubt, low confidence crawled into me. Couldn't face interviews because of fear of another failure or rejection. So I self rejected myself many times rather than bearing another pain of failure.

End of last month. Father's health has gotten stable now. My health is, I would say, still recovering from all the mental pain.

And I just saw the post today on her Insta account. Pre wedding shoots. I still don't have a job even now. I never expected the market to be this brutal for someone with a close to two years of freelancing and full time experience.

I genuinely don't know what's happening in my life OR if I have any control 🫥

Ten years ago I used to hear or read about depression,Now I am realising depression🥲

10 years ago, I was giving my 12th boards 🥲

Ten years ago I was happy, probably.

Ten years ago I didn't have a girlfriend. Your turn.