What would you have done ?
Feeling stuck in life lately. My job which once used to be amazing, has now become soul sucking. 9hr mandatory, all 5 days, hours spent in commute.... all this barely is leaving any "me" time. Add stress, health issues, growing fear of AI gonna replace me even though I use AI to get shit done fast, EMIs, ageing parents, ageing self is killing me from within.
From being someone who was always resilient, confident and active..... to always anxious, lacking even the most basic confidence and extremely sedentary..... this is not the adult life I imagined myself in.
Wanna quit my job and take a break from all noise, but being the eldest "unmarried" son with direct and indirect responsibilities, I am just unable to.
Tried to switch jobs to something better, but not getting any calls and you already know the blood bath in the job market.
I've lately been having thoughts of suicide and a part of me says I need therapy, but the bigger part of me says that costs big money + the thoughts are the effects of being at home all day and hence letting the brain wander into endless stream of thoughts.
I'm not even 30 and all this. How do I even handle this 🥲 ?
1st ;- don’t think about anything and get yourself prepared for Switch
2nd;- what makes you and engineer? Its a field where u have to learn constantly through out your life. So your partner has to be someone who supports this mentality
3rd ;- do few meaningful stuffs that is “Right” and deserve your attention , not something that people say its “right” and “your are supposed to do it”.
4rd;- pain and suffering are two different things . Pain is life , if there is no pain means you are not alive … sufferinh is a “choice” …
5th;- listen to someone who has great personality or character, not someone who is building his wealth in short span of time.
These are not “Gyans” , its just “observation”
you are leading this life just because u don’t have clarity “why you are doing this”…
What do you mean by meanings stuff that is right ?
Yes suffering is supposed to be a choice, but sadly it looks like I don't have it as a choice given my circumstances 😕
Any suggestions on whom to listen to ?
Bro relax... Suicide is too much to think about
I know trying to switch job is difficult, but I would say just break it down into small targets.
Ex: Make a target to apply to 10 very relevant companies each week (now I know you have your job as well but you can take out time on weekends to compete this). Now do this consistency for 10 weeks (~2.5 months). You're will end up applying for 100 very relevant companies and role. Now out of this 100, you should be able to get 6-8 companies for interviews. Now in that, you can try to get 1-2 offers
I have been trying this since october bro. Close to 600 jobs applied. Got one or two calls, but I did not do well as I lacked prep due to time shortage and my manager not approving my leave since I'm a high dependency in my company.
