Trending @Cognizant; Need advice for Confession ,may be on wrong platform 😕

I have joined CTS nov 2023. I have been in this shitty insurance project where I am in L2 support. There is literally no work. 1 incident per week now, earlier it was ok when we were able to do some code changes. I have no idea what I will get in rating and what my hike will be. Also my ADM has a problem with me for no reason at all. My manager is afraid of the delivery manager. My client thinks I have potential, but CTS management has gone blind. They hired me for development role, and pushed me to support role.

I am a 32 yr old female with 9 yoe in rpa(majorly automation anywhere, somewhat Uipath), salary 14 lpa. Currently trying to skill up to power automate and into ai ml.

I am married with no work it seems. No hope for kids also.

Cherry on top of all this is my own parents and husband thinks it's ok even if you are not moving forward career wise. Just have ivf and have a kid. Slowly in few years you can leave job and stay at home. My husband left his job. My earnings is the only earning. My in laws are saying just come to this small city where my father in law has house( mother in law stays with us) and stay there. My brother has also joined them saying even though you are not moving anywhere in career, just stay in CTS. That way you won't get stress. What is wrong with everyone.

I don't want to. I want to have a good career like my brother has. My brother is in Google. Why is it such a burden to think women can also go forward. I know some stupid people will come and say think of your family first. I do care for my family. I want something for myself also. I am deeply disappointed with myself.

Does anyone else have similar issues like me?