To all the brothers, a cry for help, how to save myself before it's late?
Good Evening big brothers.
23M, SDE, 10 LPA, Product Based, 25K JEE rank, tier 2 college, inconsistent gym but not fat, 5 11,
My laziness has destroyed my life 🙁. I have also been masturbating once everyday since years.
From JEE, to my college, everything.
I am fighting suicidal thoughts. My parents are aging, I am a high age fresher, people start at 20 21, and if I didn't fuked up, I would have been in a tier 1 college, my friends are who even scored less than me in mocks.
For this whole life, the past 6 7 years, I destroyed my life.
While writing this post, I am suicidal to the point, I don't even know if I even have the right to continue.
Although there were some desires I always wanted to fulfil before I take my final breath.
- A partner, A family, give them everything and make sure she is safe.
- Give my parents a lot of gifts
- Fund my parents surgeries so they can be healthy again
- Buy a macbook, iphone, samsung ultra phone
- Have very good skills of my field and be intelligent.
- Have a High salary
- Have knowledge about the real world(street smartness)
I have always been rejected, I always wondered why, but it's clear, I am a loser.
I don't want to show my earning is higher than this number of people, everyone has their own line of life, but, if you don't even have respect for yourself, because of your shortcomings like me, should I even be allowed to live?
Dear Lodu bhai, instagram scroll karna band karo aur kaam pe dhyan do! Aaj kal ke BKLs zara zara si baaton me suicidal ho jate hai.
Humko pata hai kaha zal rhi h tumhari, RR se cheezen nhi milti, jitna kaam utna paisa.
Aur zindagi me yaad rakhna... Just because you don't give up doesn't mean you will make it.
Mtlb.. zaruri nahi har cheez pa hi loge.. moz lo aur roz lo, mile to thik na mile to thik.
Can I quit then?
I don't feel the need to continue if I cant improve.
Being very practical, my last wishes cannot be fulfilled if I cant come out of laziness or become strong.
I was given time, I should leave
Bhai ghane chutiya ho tum, hum keh rhe hai zaruri nhi hai har cheez payi hi jaye, mehnat karo, mil jaye toh thik hai nahi to aage badho, life must go on!
Chodu street me utar, tab milegi street smartness.
23 me 10L salary, meri 5L thi. Ambani ki aulaad crore me kamate honge, main aur tu nhi hai ambani, jo mila pehle uske liye grateful ho, gaza ka baza toh suna hoga, bhooke mar rhe h udhar!
Padhle and karle, mil jayenge skills. Baba Ramdev bhi kehte hai, karne se hota hai.
Kya karega macbook, i phone and ss ultra ka?
Health insurance, corporate one, pata kar, tere ghar toh batane ayenge nhi log tujhe
Fir kya hoga us se, baap k sath baith, pair daba de kabhi unke khud se, maa ke sar me champi karde.. kuch to kar, nhi sahab sidhe bade gift dene h mujhe, typical insta ka keeda
Ye to hume clear hai ye dab RR ladki na milne ka hai. Jaruri nhi h bhai gf hona, shadi kar lena aur ghuma lena use hi.
Bro, never let that thought come to your mind again. You are just 23, earning well. Millions struggle everyday day. You have your whole life in front of you. You can easily give yourself 6-8 months, prepare hard and switch to big tech companies, you can reach 30+ lpa package if you prepare well.
College tag doesn’t matter once you start working, I have seen people from low tier college working at big techs.
All my college friends/peers started from 8-10 lpa and now a lot of them are working at big tech companies earning good. You just have to believe in yourself and give yourself time.
Also, I would suggest you find a hobby (play some sports) to keep away these thoughts.
I am loosing the will to continue, I don't want to cry since there are no tears left.
I don't know brother.
You're not a loser, just young and dumb
College doesn't matter if you already have a decent job. You can grow further.
You're too young to think about having a partner, ideal age is 27-28 when you are financially better off with savings.
Your parents probably never asked for the gifts you want to give them. Health problems happen to everyone, can't help it.
Point number 4 is just stupidity, you can live without gadgets. They're not necessary for a good life.
Salary and knowledge increase will happen as you age. You're not even 25 yet kiddo. Everyone has shortcomings, doesn't mean they become suicidal over it. Get used to knowing there will always be people better and worse off than you in the world.
If you keep comparing, you'll only end up feeling like shit. Focus on yourself, be happy with what you have. Take therapy sessions. You'll be fine.
It is not clear what is the problem here. “always been rejected” is a problem? Or 10 LPA and 23 age is problem? Or Not being able to get into IIT is a problem?
I think you are just imagining problems here. May be consider consulting a psychologist, and later a psychiatrist. Good Luck.
I am loosing the will to continue.
Just try to see the other side bhai you are just 23 and have a job that pays enough to live a good life(be grateful for that first) , don't think about your laziness/your bad habits /or anything negative about yourself (stop using social Media for some time) and try to distract the mind from such thoughts , indulge yourself in some other kind of recreational activities (sports, yoga, exploring places), take help from close friends or parents, talk to them . Try to understand Quitting is not an option , it'll further create chaos for your loved ones (if you don't have the will to continue, still make that clear in your mind that you have to continue), seek mindfulness , seek help from some professional at least, don't give up easily
I understand you brother, but if I give you the reassurance that no one will be affected if I leave atleast financially, will your opinion still be the same?
Yes I'll say the same, again you're seeing the things "financially", try to give some meaning to your life and ditch any other negative thought which are coming
On a piece on paper write 3 things which u would like to improve, 3 things which u want to do. Try to be better 1% daily. Consistently. Like if u r oversleeping...sleep 10 mins less every day...if u want to start reading....start by 2 to 3 pages daily... Take vitamin d test as well. My husband from tier 1 had similar issue at 23. Today at 33 he is doing great in every perspective.
Jerk off dude Your mind is trapped in negativity and it acts as an echo chamber making you feel like shit
No problem is worth giving 2 fucks after post nut clarity lol
Hey you there, How you doing now?
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At 23 I was just at 4lpa...just keep working hard....get best at what you do....it just gets better...believe me it does. You are in a very good salary range at this age.
