Suddenly Everything turned Lonely.

Hi there. So I was living in sharing room with a guy and knew well other guys in same floor. We kinda use to have parties each weekend. I had female friends too there, so each evening was chill.

Due environment was not motivating or helpful as all, each days it was about politics, religion, girls, bitching of other flatmates.

I am stuck in same company from last 3.5 years, I got campus placement in current company and I am stuck at 11LPA while my friend as making 25-35LPA, some even cleared GATE, UPPCS.

I on the hand did not do anything good after college, I was lazy, ambition less and comfortable beyond limit.

Work was chill too but now manager changed and things are going bad really fast, I might lose job in 2 months.

So After this all, I thought I will shift to flat, single room and I will lock in for some time and switch, build body.

I moved yesterday and till now I am feeling this anxiety in my body, feeling heavy and wants to go back to old places.

Even my owner is bad, Now He is saying there is lock of 6 months and you can't leave before that. I was paid, rent for running month, 2 month security money.

He is saying when I give notice, then rent for that will be deducted from security.

This single room and 'better' environment which I wanted is costing me too much it seems.

How do I lock in for 6 months to build body and switch.

Should I go back to same places and try to find a single room nearby but my money is stuck here. I made a horrible decision, I get intimidated easily and I don't question back or even fight for right thing.

That why I hate my self, from long time ago. ( there are many stories, this one is latest).

I am 27Y old male in Noida. I did Btech from Good NIT, so all this comparison kills me more. I have cousin who did Btech from IIT D, job in private company, resigned, joined center government job and now preparing for UPPCS.