Stuck with dull life
hello everyone,
Finished college in 2023. Got a good job through off campus process. Everything is good wrt work(good team, good culture, and good pay). It was all fun and love. But now, things got boring
Let me go in details:- So, I am something not so typical guy. Got some good friends in college. My intrest lies mostly in History, International Relations. Used to be good reader(mostly non fiction but open to fiction stuffs). Used to inspire myself from tales of Ceaser, Alexander, Napoleon and all. History is smthing for me as web series and all for others. Even during bad days, tales used to cheer me up.
I enjoy my work, never thought I'll start my career this good. Kinda dream run. But it's not bcz of work, it's bcz of things after work.
I don't have much life after work. It's mostly YouTube, walking around Indiranagar's 100 ft road, and that's all. I had plans to study some maths and LLMs for my work. But things have got so monotonous that I've lost interest. The urge to do great work is dying. And random thoughts starts to play permutation and combination when I'm alone. Earlier, it used to help cuz my mind can think without clutter, helped me to do good work in my 1st year, but that asset has become liability.
I remember when I was in college, things were really bad during last year. But I atleast had friends, and somehow those conversations used to cheer up, give hope. But now I am alone, my brain has stopped working the way I wished.
Intellectual stuffs were smthing that could turn any bad day to good. And I used to have a quest for that, reading wiki pages, searching thr articles at random. The happiness of knowing something new was amazing. Now, it's all gone. I see a news article and I can predict what will happen. Turns out the same, this too in movies. Nothing enough to raise the thrill in things.
Just saw a kid in eve, singing "Sinchan's entry song". And my days as kid flashed. Days where we used to get happy for small things. Like samosa coming in evening, mom allowing us to watch cricket match till late night, dad giving bike keys to get groceries. It isn't that same now.
Writing this in kinda confused state. Hoping to get some good suggestion from folks around here.
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Not to downgrade your post but it looks like you need to start heading out there. What you feel is, similar to what everyone feels when they move to a new city all alone. Always remember that this phase shall pass as well, my advice is start heading out there - even though it can feel lonely at times and who knows maybe you'll meet a new group who's into the same things as you.
Thanks man!
Not to downplay your post...
But what you are feeling is part nostalgia, part homesickness. Most people go through this when adjusting to job life. Just hang in there and get used to it.
Idk. I never had homesickness. It's bout the people, if I get let's say someone with whom I can go to chai tapri, talk stupid stuffs the way we had in college, my brain will get the stimulus.
I used to hate going home cuz things get lill restricted(like subah utho, jldi brush kro, doodh piyo, tang Mt kro). I am loved, but these things are important to me, and gajr pr thoda rule based jyaada hota.