I’m adding the link to those who are not aware about this.
I am genuinely grateful for all the well wishes I received via Grapevine. I am sorry I couldn’t respond, I had certain extenuating circumstances that made it difficult to respond.
I effectively went on the ventilator to support breathing as I soon contracted COVID afterwards. It has taken me 2 months to recover and I got discharged from the hospital only last week.
I was battling my inner demons on the hospital bed as I got laid off by my employer during my treatment for absence.
Thankfully, my medical insurance covered all of my expenses. Overall, they billed my insurance provider 68L and frankly if I didn’t have insurance, I would’ve died.
I had a very traumatic childhood, I lost my elder sister when I was 6 in an accidental fire at my home. I escaped but she was asleep and I couldn’t save her.
Deep down, I got badly disturbed through all this. I started smoking when I was 14. I used to smoke every other day because my crippling anxiety and depression was unbearable.
I have been a top performer throughout my life. School topper and CA Ranker (sub-50). It is not as if I was some dumb individual that could not weigh the risks. I was just in too much pain.
I reached out for help from my parents and they did try to heal me. I consulted the top child psychologists in Chandigarh at that time, it helped but my wounds were too deep.
I am hopeful that I will recover from my addiction and mental state of being. My parents have always told me that when you are at the bottom the only way is up. So we rise yet again.
Thank you everyone for your support. I really appreciate it.
