My Story of having a panic attack at Google(27F/48L)
I was journalling yesterday night after going for Pilates at a studio near my place in Gurgaon. I have a great job by most standards but like they say. Comparison is the thief of Joy.
"You constantly compare myself with people 2x my age and have unrealistic expectations from my career" = is what my therapist told me. It took me 6 months to accept that.
My relationship has honestly been a relationshit. This guy I met on Hinge told me that I was his forever. But he broke my heart when I came to know that he has a girlfriend already and he was talking to me on the side. It completely shattered my heart </3
After the death of both of my parents, I feel alone in this world. I don't have a partner and it feels lonelier than ever. I look okay-ish but I have put on some weight. That is why I am exercising more now. But honestly, the joy in my life left when both my parents decided to leave me alone.
All my batchmates think that I am very successful. Maybe on the outside, yes. But on the inside? I feel like an utter failure. I sometimes vomit at work when I get panic attacks and things get too heavy for me.
Just wanted to write this down, just in case. I want my story to be out there.
I wish you nothing but happiness. I hope you find what you seek and you get who you truly deserve. ❤️
Been in a similar situation. Used to think like this for year (was super hopeless). But eventually life took a different direction (never realised how it happened). But just hang in there and your life will change for better, really soon.
Cheers
Have been there in past. These are the situations which we might encounter once in a life. In future if we look back and see how we dealt the situation we should not have any regrets, so it’s upto you on how to handle this right now. World has many opportunities, be engaged and learn something different or may be it’s fine not to be productive and just complete the office work and spend rest of the day watching series. But at the end when you look back you should not regret on how you dealt this situation because situations change and you have the steering.
You are one of those top talents who got into Google, I guess you should be able to steer in a right direction.
You are a strong girl! Don’t ever lose hope and trust on the divine force. Just be yourself in every moment and I wish you get the contentment and happiness that you truly deserve!
Life is a remarkable journey, filled with highs and lows, and every experience, whether joyous or sorrowful, eventually comes to an end. It's important to remember that everything happens for a reason, and no matter how difficult a moment may seem, it too shall pass. Just stay strong and patient, knowing that better days are ahead.😊😊
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Just stay strong girl! This will not be constant and you will come out from this phase.
There is nothing in our control and we can’t help it either, the only thing we can do is HOPE.
Been in this situation and i know the pain you’re into, just be strong and have patience
May you find meaning in your life again. Sending all the good wishes and virtual hugs :)
Hey, life sometimes sends us on a rollercoaster ride, which makes us overwhelmed. You may or may not see the meaning of why all this is happening to you, and that's okay.
Although you can't bring back your parents, you can honour their memories by living a happy life. Do it for yourself too girl. If someone is to come along with you on your journey, they will show up. Until then, hug your life hard and don't let go.
Rest easy❤️
This is not even midlife for me to call it midlife crisis.
You have no responsibilities, no kids, go out, visit the world, visit Europe, US, Australia, Bangkok, have fun, this is the time, later you won’t get it, trust me
