My First Love… Just 50% Pass 😅

I’m a proper 90s kid.
Not one of those “school topper”, “district rank”, “I studied 18 hours a day” types.

I somehow escaped 12th with a first class by God’s grace and luck working together 🤝😂

I studied in small schools and colleges where girls were very few.
No great interaction with girls at all.
Sometimes we even fought with them like we fought with boys 😭
No soft corner… no butterflies… nothing.

Then engineering happened.

First day itself… shock of my life.
Half the class was girls 😳

But honestly, my mindset was simple:

“Brother… somehow clear engineering and come out alive.”

Classes started.
To be honest, 50% of what lecturers taught went straight above my head 🚀

So after class, I used to sit in the library, take different authors’ books, find the easiest explanation, and make my own notes.

After a few weeks, people started noticing.

“Machaa… this fellow looks smart da.”
“Definitely topper material.”

If only they knew the reality 🤣

Then a few girls started approaching me for notes.
They liked my notes.
And that’s when I actually started enjoying talking to girls.

Still… I never “fell in love.”

I had a nice friends group with both boys and girls.

Then came 7th semester.

Suddenly life became serious.

I decided one thing: “I don’t want arranged marriage. Let me see if someone close to me can become my life partner.”

From my friend circle, I found one gem 💎

For one full semester I thought deeply about it like some Bollywood hero preparing climax scenes.

Finally gathered courage and told her:

“I like you… I have feelings for you… will you marry me?”

And her response?

“No.” 😂💔

Brother… the embarrassment level was international.

For one week we didn’t even speak.

Then I convinced myself: “At least friendship should not die.”

So we slowly came back to normal friend zone life 😅

But somewhere inside, I still wanted to know the real reason.

One day I asked again.

She said: “Family issues… cultural differences… it may not work.”

Honestly… I felt peaceful after hearing that.

At least for the first time in life, I expressed my feelings genuinely to someone.

Years later, plot twist arrived 🎬

I came to know another girl from the same group actually liked me… and both were friends.

Looks like my “gem” sacrificed herself 😭😂

That second story is a separate episode for another post.

Moral : Sometimes life gives you “No” not to hurt you… but to prepare you.
And trust me… expressing your feelings is always better than spending your whole life wondering “What if?” ❤️