Honestly, I don’t know what the meaning of life is anymore. I’m going to turn 30 this November, and I feel like I haven’t achieved much. My net worth is around ₹22 lakhs. If I exclude my parents’ money, that’s all I have. I’ve been working for over three years now, I started at the age of 27 but I already feel exhausted now.
I’m tired of life. I’m about to turn 30, yet I don’t feel I’ve achieved anything significant. I don’t know what the purpose of this life is. I’m not happy with the way I’m living. My life revolves entirely around work just work and more work. There’s no motivation left to live.
I’ve decided I don’t want to get married. I have a very negative feeling about India. I’ve lived here, I’ve seen how people struggle even for basic necessities. I don’t want my children to live like that.
My parents are government employees. My father is a Class A officer, yet I’m still struggling in my career. Opportunities in India are limited, especially for someone from the general category. Every day feels like a struggle here. There are very few opportunities, and most people have a crab mentality they don’t want others to rise.
The cities are polluted. Unemployment is rising. The government doesn’t seem to care. Corruption is everywhere. People are selfish and opportunistic; no one truly supports another. Everyone is busy pulling others down. Society still carries a colonial mindset. Deep down, many Indians subconsciously believe that the Indian race is weak and subservient, though they’d never admit it.
Each year, the country is getting hotter due to global warming, and I believe India will be one of the worst affected. Being located in the tropics and surrounded by the Himalayas, India traps heat. The Himalayas block the cold Siberian winds from entering, which makes the country even hotter. Climate change will only worsen this in the years ahead.
I also feel that foreigners don’t respect Indians and Indians themselves don’t respect one another. There’s competition for everything here, even for basic needs.
I live in Gurgaon, and there’s hardly any place to relax or visit. The city is overcrowded. There are very few parks, and even those are poorly maintained. Garbage is scattered everywhere. The municipal authorities are deeply corrupt and fail to maintain even basic infrastructure.
At work, people try to put each other down. If I speak in a meeting, others interrupt me or try to prove that my communication skills are weak. It’s frustrating and demoralizing. I feel quite dissatisfied with my life and truly dissatisfied.
I know that even if I go abroad, I’ll face racism. I’ve seen posts on X (Twitter) showing how racist many people are toward Indians. But the sad part is, even Indians are unkind to one another. There’s constant leg-pulling, jealousy, and competition. Opportunities are scarce, and both government and private sectors are filled with corruption.
Everywhere you look—government offices, banks, institutions, private companies—corruption runs deep. Everyone’s main motive seems to be personal gain. A government officer works to make money for himself. Politicians and political parties exist to maintain power and enrich themselves. The same applies to private companies too.
There are very few honest people left. India has become a low-trust society. People don’t trust one another because everyone fears being cheated of money, of opportunity, or of freedom.
