Lost hopes.
I lost my mother a year ago. She was ill, and I saw her suffering terribly. I tried everything I could but couldn't save her. She was suffering in front of my eyes and I couldn't do anything. I prayed to every god to save her and make her healthy like before. She used to say, "When I get healthy again I will go and do this and that, and we will go somewhere together." She did lots of things for us when it was my turn to to give her everything as a child that god took her from me. I wanted to give her many things. When I lost her I lost hope and also lost trust in God.
Stay strong bro. These are tough times. I also recently lost my job, lost my skills, lost happiness became depressed but I am trying level best to get a job. I dont know where life take me. But I know I have to suffer the pain and carry on with what I have. I understand your situation is entirely different from mine. My friend also lost his mother last year on Ugadi (telugu new year) but he didn't give up. He stood and he is doing good in his life. Situations will change. Don't worry brother. God will give u something. Take care brother
I am also sailing in the same boat... A very good advice about what I got from a spiritual person. Do all the good things in the name of your mom. If she has taken the next birth or wherever she is...she will be protected with the good deeds that we do in her name.. I am focusing more on doing good deeds and still I feel my mom's blessing in my life. She comes in dream and gives me suggestions if I feel stuck in life or depressed
Think about how happy your mum would be to see how far you have come! She is watching you from above!
It's the fate of every human, old age is difficult for all. It does lead to despair for everyone, you're not alone.
Stay strong!
