If you are like me how do you feel?

Someone who is very quiet and self conscious and don't talk much with people around. Always speak words very carefully as well. Is very caring and loyal, understands the needs of everyone around and is very calm too. But the thing is that one doesn't look that good and maybe people think of you as completely opposite of how you are in general.

I m very afraid to open up or even talk to other people due to how i look. Im very conscious about my looks, so im a loner too, nobody to talk just do my work and my day is over.

I never went to a cafe, never went for a trip even. Just worked on myself as I used to utilise my time not because I can't go there but because I used to feel how much good looking people are there everywhere what they will think of me.

And I'm from a good family, not to mention I was a pampered kid too but it's just me who was so insecure about how i look. I'm earning well own my car as well, still I work hard to distract myself but I forgot to live life. I do investments and everything but my face is still that same.

I never was in a relationship and no girl was even friends with me and I too never tried, still I have that fear. Once went on a dating app, I couldn't even swipe to the girls there because they were so good looking, deleted the app because I was too overwhelmed by their beauty, also i thought what will someone think if I talk to them.

At this point i m not lying i can reach even higher levels in my career but the thing I miss is companionship. When there is weekend I think if there would have been a partner i would have went out with them. I can't change my looks but I those things that girls say i truly have that nature but everyone will see face first, and that's normal too.

Idk what and why I wrote this but was feeling down today, infact not feeling well since past few days even. Doing good in one thing doesn't affect or will get you love i believe. Once I thought i will cook for my partner, and till this date I don't have courage to approach any girl. The first thing it strikes is what someone will think seeing my face.