If it all shuts down tomorrow!

On Tuesday, May 5th, I was sitting in the Gurgaon office and a random thought crossed my mind. What if the org was going to shut.

Looking at our quick commerce metrics, things are going very fast. Few months into the thing, It was clear to me that this pace is unsustainable. Office everyday is too much stress and not just the work part. I wanted to know if the CEO asked us to leave today, would the first feeling be of 'relief'.

Exploring forums like Reddit and Grapevine, I got to understand that the market is brutal, much less good jobs, leetcode is the king etc.

In the past, DSA was not something I had been good at, and I got my current job through a referral, which was mostly based on my product sense and startup hustle and accolades. One thing led to other and while improving as a builder I missed the train on competitive coding.

Now 4 years and 2 jobs later, I was standing here looking at the uncertain and blurry future, and less than 1 resume updated.

If the news came today, the first couple of weeks would be brutal. I read job descriptions and just understand the English. No concepts, no techniques and no deep imagination. It felt like either I had been fooling myself(and the world) as a techie for all these years or i was just not good enough.

"Not good enough". I was not ready to accept that. I have been regarding myself highly all through my life and this was just not it.

So if you found out your org was going to shut, what is your day 1 plan? Would you have the power to "choose" what comes next or start learning everything from zero?

To anyone thinking about this, only moral of this story is "Believe in yourself and trust the process. Life has a way of coming around :)".

PS - Taking a long evening walk before logging back in.