How to recover from someone I know choosing to end themselves?

This happened in office. I logged in at 10 30 am. My tech lead and QA lead were discussing something and I said good morning and I joined them.

They said gm and said, have you seen the mail? I said which one, and they said to check.

A mail from HR, regarding passing of a colleague, citing mental health as an important part.

I was in a state of denial, how come this could happen with that man?

My tech lead told me everything, he lost his parents with a mere gap of 6 months in Covid.

He tried his best to have a family of his own, tried dating, failed, and even tried matrimonial websites and failed again. The man used to go to gym and was quite a guy of hobbies. He used to play flute so well.

They further added, he was acting a bit weird from past 2 months, logging out early at 5 pm. And the day before he left, he completed all his task and resolved all dependencies. It felt somewhere, he wished to leave without disturbing anyone. He couldn't handle being this lonely.

Rest in peace my friend.

Tbh, I don't wanna say this here, but I could see me in him. Less talks, only work and gym. Only career and no one else. I have a neutral bond with my parents. And I never had a partner either. I was rejected and I don't wish to be with someone before I develop as a man first. There was a time I was suicidal too, but it's better since I am taking therapy.

If I wasn't taking therapy, I feel, high chances I would have end up like him. I shed a tear during lunch break, feeling his heart also seeked love, like me.