FloatingMarshmallow
FloatingMarshmallow

Hitting rock bottom

I was always a conventional hard-working person. Did well in acad, went to one of the premier eng colleges of India, got placed in a good company but that’s it.

Been working in a metro since 3 years and I’ve never felt this low ever. Year started with me finding loml cheating, somehow tried and still trying not to break down, started playing poker online to curb anxiety at night, lost a decent size of my savings there (>10 lakhs), got rejected from a promotion and other companies due to not being able to prepare well, parents pressuring to get married (I’m almost 27) and even the thought of marriage is scary right now but can’t explain that to parents.

I’ve gone completely silent, was a proper 5 day a week gymmer since years with decent physique, not going there since 3 months, filled with anxiety and grief. My mom is constantly worried, I don’t feel like talking to her, don’t feel like talking to anyone. I still earn well so not exactly broke but the feeling that how stupidly I brought a kind of financial misery on myself is overwhelming when my friends are building their future.

I feel like I’m losing everything, can’t sleep at night. This was not supposed to happen, why is it happening to me, I’d never asked for anything I don’t deserve, I have worked very hard to get everything, then why it is all falling to pieces. I just feel if only time can stop for sometime.

I didn’t write this post to garner sympathy, I don’t need it, it’s just that I’ve had enough and wanted to let it out for once.

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WigglyPenguin
WigglyPenguin

“I was 27, broke and severely depressed. I had just lost a large amount of money gambling online. The girl that I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with had cheated on me. I was down bad. How could she?! But f@ck her. This story isn’t about her. I’m the main character. All I had was the gym and my wits and this is the story of my comeback.”

Now write the rest of this story - you got this!

SparklyUnicorn
SparklyUnicorn
TCS24d

Username has Legend for a reason. 💯🔥

PerkyUnicorn
PerkyUnicorn

So what if you lost 10l and more..it's your money...don't think much. You invested in yourself to get some money..now you spent it...nothing matters really

ZippyMochi
ZippyMochi

Jobs and partners are outside your control, best to try and move on from both. As long as you're not gambling anymore, all good.

Start with gym, at least once or twice a week. Don't need to go 5 days, just do longer/heavier workout if you like.

You'll get over it, don't worry too much. This will pass too, and bigger challenges await as well.

Welcome to adulthood.

PeppyBurrito
PeppyBurrito

I don't get it going to gym is supposed to be fun activity, gym is playground for grownups. If you think of gym like a punishment then most prolly you never went there. I sometimes go 6 days a week and only reason not all 7 days cause on Sundays our gym is close. Not saying that one need to train like hell without resting everyday but, it is just very fun thing to do.

PerkyMochi
PerkyMochi

My jijaji lost around 4-5 crore. My friend lost 25 lac. Another one lost house, jewellery, FD etc. lots of stories every day

GigglyPancake
GigglyPancake
EY23d

Aisa sacch mein ho rha hai kya? Online betting mein? Ya kahir aur?

PerkyMochi
PerkyMochi

Teen patti type apps, betting apps ye sab me. Remember you will always loose.

SwirlyKoala
SwirlyKoala

DM in case you feel need to talk to someone. I am from tier 1 eng college and married so can guide somewhat.

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SillyBanana
SillyBanana

"I am from Tier 1 eng college" how will this add value ?

PrancingPanda
PrancingPanda

And ek aur baat if she cheated bhai although this might seem psychopathical. But uska naaya banda bane toh maa chd de uski. Tu mat ro bhai rula logo ko.
I used to love her and all gaya gaddhe mein, izzat se rahoge toh izzat denge varna maa ch
d denge waala attitude liya bas ab.

PS- don’t go against the law though🙂

SleepyKoala
SleepyKoala

Yeah bro, tell her new partner everything. This respect after partner cheats should only exist on movies

ZestyKoala
ZestyKoala

Seemed like you encourage Rambo like shit!. I say go for it.

WobblyCoconut
WobblyCoconut

Chutiya hai tu

SleepyHamster
SleepyHamster

Arey bhai , parshan aadmi ko aur guilty kyun feel kra rahe. Motivate him yar

WobblyCoconut
WobblyCoconut

Aise log isi layak hote hai

DizzyBurrito
DizzyBurrito

Stop Playing Online Poker , I feel it’s completely rigged.

PeppyDonut
PeppyDonut

Hey man sorry to hear what you are going through. My advice will be to get back to your discipline, start with the gym maybe. Plan a short trip somewhere in the mountains, visit offbeat places. I know you lost money but if you can spare some please do visit himalayan ranges. I personally do this when I am feeling low and depressed, trust me it works.

DerpyDumpling
DerpyDumpling

I feel you buddy. Take care of yourself. I hope things go well for you from here.

WobblyBiscuit
WobblyBiscuit

Hey! Just hold on. Dont be too harsh on yourself. After 20’s life is almost always like this. People who show they have figured it out are equally miserable. Hold on tight. Talk to a friend/stranger if that helps. Dont let this misery win! You are bigger than this. And as everything this phase too shall pass

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