Have u ever been in a relationship?

Dude, I have been following your posts for few days, probably everyone has. Just want to tell you that you are not alone in this situation. Almost 60% of Indian guya are going through of what you are going through.
My advice to you would be stop looking for validation on GrapeVine, try something to meet new people. An anonymous platform won't help you. Go out in clubs, play games, gym or what not.

What kind of !?

BTW I'm not involved in any kind of relationship

Friendship also is a relationship only. You need to articulate your post better. Relationship of what kind, with whom, what sort/level.