Got my hike but lost my mom forever...
Posted this in Deloitte private group, sharing for everyone to see the reality of Deloitte:
Last year, I worked the hardest I had every worked. I had the most toxic environement with my client and my team. I still stayed extremely quiet and silent, continued to work through some of the darkest days in my life. I thought of offing myself atleast 2 times in the last year.
I was given a 16% hike which was the highest in my entire team. I was not happy. The reason was that my mom was extremely sick last year. I sent my sisters money to take care of her but she had severe upper respiratory distress that had made it's way to her lungs.
I could only meet her last Diwali. I was completely torn when she left us forever last February. I had to man up and act in accordance with what society expects from me. I did not cry at all, I finished her rites and came back to Gurgaon.
My girlfriend has been a solid support to me. She has been my rock through all of this pain. But my only regret is that I didn't see my mom more often. I have gotten my hike for the hard work.
Was my mom really worth 16% hike?
FUCK YOU DELOITTE. I AM LEAVING SOON.
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😪 these things are what makes me reconsider work. I'm avoiding seeing a doctor for what could be a tumour (cancerous or not), because specialist doctor is available from 12.30 pm like middle of work 🥺😥
This is actually quite painful to hear. Om Shanti. 🙏🏻
I am sorry to hear this 🙏🙏 May God bless you with all you desire.
If possible, try to spend more time with your gf and sisters, father now. They are your own family now. Whether you stay in Deloitte or not. Make sure to have balanced life - between work and personal life.
Family comes first.
If you still haven’t left yet, you are doing wrong to yourself. Be being in one of the Big4 can clearly relate what a bunch of bullshit companies this Big4s are. I am also planning to leave asap. It is a living hell.
Damm!! No work is precious than our family and self .. if anything happens to you next day there will be a replacement for your position with higher package than what you are getting so don’t give a dam about these corporate companies who just use you and leave you hanging without any personal life.
No matter what family always comes first period.
I wish you the strength to go through this phase. If I can of any help, please feel free to connect
I have seen a similar loss. Stayed away from parents and lost the one parent I was close to. This is as recent as a few months ago. In this time, displaying vulnerability is a display of strength. Feel what you are feeling and dont feel like you have to be strong for anyone. You too need support.
I am glad to see your GF is supporting you in such a time, it is hard for both of you to move forward.
I do grief therapy and if you are looking for a good therapist feel free to reach out to me. Happy to help.
You aint alone, man. Remember to take care of yourself in all of this. Society doesnt have jts entire life ahead of it, you do.