Forgive yourself brothers, live again without any regret in mind

23M, always focused on studying, landed a tier 2 college, will be starting my journey soon with a job.

I never worked on dressing sense, gym and self care, even sacrificed travels, didn't interacted with females and basically lived a static life in the room studying. It made my mental health do down the hill and I suffered because of it.

I hated myself for my looks, not having a partner, not having a good job, not studying hard daily. Despite knowing the diagnosis, I wasn't improving?

I tortured my mind, never gave my body appreciation, validation, care which I always expected from other people. How would a mind grow if I consider myself a emotionless machine which doesn't feel anything.

Brothers, forgive yourselves, life is short, play some sport, try gym, even if it's 30 min a day, stay at a nice place, have a walk, participate openly with your hobbies in social clubs. Keep yourselves out there and develop your human heart. Travel, even if it's cheap, click pictures, walk together, share stories.

I will be doing the same, no more regrets. Live again, no one gives a f about you, but only you should, have a deadline, but only on own growth. This is coming from years of inner mental torture.

If you wish to read my story.

My story -----

In school, I always focused on studies, preparing for exams, didn't spent much time with family, didn't got myself involved in school debating competitions, always used to bash my inner self for even slightly less marks as if they were evrything.

In college, I pursued the same thing, zero female friends, male friends only acquaintance. Never dated, played any sport or went to any meetups. Only focused on coding, development, which affected my mental health severly, I was shitting my mind as if there were any eternal reward for all this pain.

Today I have a job, but if I had just lived life normally like others, I bet I would have been able to balance a lot of things and would have definitely improved as a person, and crack a lot better job.

Life is precious brothers, we matter, our warmness does, our kindness helps us and people.

So I will not repeat these mistakes and will live life. I will go out, attend social meetup, meanwhile work on myself, travel with different groups, stay in hostels, participate in NGO activities. Marathons. The world is there for us brothers. For not just once,but always ,let your heart, heart for you. Let your mind feel proud you did great and we will do better than yesterday. Don't let your insecurities become a problem. Become a happy person.

See yourselves in the mirror and feel better that you are improving and will live happily ever after, solve problems and become strong through you for everyone that matters to you.