Feeling I have wasted 6 years of my life

Thank you for hearing me out. I am a 2019 graduate, I feel like I have wasted my crucial years. I have got 2 YOE which is even a bit shaky, life threw unexpected things at me which I couldn't handle where I was not even at fault, before 2020 everything was so good, I was decent in studies, had plans for what I was gonna do, but whatever happened and even some of my own decisions because lack of knowledge or understanding did not work out well. Now, I've been feeling this way for a long time: a fear of being judged by others, extremely low confidence, comparing myself to others, and trying to be perfect, among other things. I have been ambitious just like most people in this world, and one more thing is that I have not even wasted or enjoyed these years in fun. This time has been spent juggling, handling and thinking about situations and not even able to manage one.

I don't even know why I am writing here. Thank you