Feeling depressed in life !!

I'm just so down. I feel completely lost and alone. My friend group, the one I had in Bangalore, was my lifeline. And, well, I messed it up. I had a huge crush on someone in the group, and I finally worked up the nerve to tell her. She rejected me, and now… everyone’s ghosted me. I can't even bring myself to talk to them. It hurts so much.

Work isn't any better. My team's all over the place – Bangalore, Hyderabad – and I'm stuck here in Gurugram by myself. It's so isolating. No team lunches, no after-work nothing. Just me at my desk. I've tried to chat with other people, but I'm just not good at it. I'm too shy, and I always feel awkward.

Honestly, the worst part is having no one to talk to. No one to really understand. I feel like I'm carrying this huge weight all by myself. And it's not like I'm not trying. I'm still pushing myself at work, staying on top of all the AI stuff and everything else I need to know. I’ve been killing it on projects, but my boss just keeps making up excuses not to promote me. It’s like he doesn’t even see how hard I work.

So, I’ve been trying to find a new job. I've been grinding on DSA and system design, practicing like crazy. I’m even pretty good at competitive programming – I’m a Guardian on LeetCode and do Codeforces contests regularly. But even with all that, I can't get a single call back. I’m messaging like twenty recruiters a day, and they just ignore me. It’s like I don’t even exist.

Right now, I’m just sitting here alone in my apartment, wondering what I’m supposed to do. I feel so trapped. I just… I need something to change. I need help.