Everything is now looking waste , all the efforts that i have putting is looking worthless...

I came to Gurugram in November 2024 with a hope to pivot or start my career in entry level product management role , joined a BPO to avoid career gap with a hope that preparing parallely will help me land into some better position someday. With each passing day , i applied to each and every company , startup , cold mail on Linkedin and personal mail to HRs. Almost 800-850 applications and even more if we include easy apply but no luck . Every day i am just waking up , going to office , taking extensive calls probably 80-100 and sometimes even more depending upon call flow and repeating and telling the same queries to merchants and constantly thinking if i came here for this . There is no fixed off(you can get any week off whether you wanted or not ranging from Mon to Sun). Hearing the same shit from merchants , continuously talking like 7 hrs straight out of 9 hrs job and come back physically and mentally drained. Even the salary that i am getting is not enough to fulfill the basic needs in that city like gurugram ( provided i don't drink , smoke and i am not a tea lover too) . Even getting a role in operations or close domain for just a Rs 40K salary is a dream for me . Am i really that much worthless or luck is not favouring me at all. Sometimes i become angry , emotional and even question my existence . Even this job of call center and my salary made me came this far but i still didn't give the gift to my parents from my salary as there is not a saving i have left with.

People usually say you will get something better , have patience . How much patience do i need to have . I am not dreaming for Rs. 1 LPM something just a normal Rs 40-45k job to get out of this call center.

I have also been shortlisted for Google's APM program this year and my first round is scheduled for 22nd april but now i think that if i am not getting considered for normal roles , how will i gather myself to appear for company like google. Though i am preparing for so long but my current situation is making me question everything