Deteriorating mental health

Thanks for showing courage and accepting that there is a problem

1. Go and see a good doctor, there is no harm in discussing it with professional
   As you are staying alone, no one will ever know

2. Start looking for a shift ,
   Take a job in a medium/ big size firm Jpmc, hsbc, Barclays..these guys always have opportunities for an experienced person ( have seen many product owner openings in volvo but that’s a different domain)

Start going to nearby temple in morning and stay for 15 minutes ( it works)

All the best ..

Dekh dost, you are just a number for the org. Trust me when I tell you, it ties back to a simple metric of revenue per employee (payback metric) - I calculate this for my org and it’s a shitty practice. Not worth ruining your peace of mind over it. I know it’s easier said than done, but get out and do what pleases you. The hardest part is just starting.

Pls hit pubs and start dating

I'm not a PM so I can't say that work wise I understand what pressure you might be under but I do work at a startup, I've felt the pressure of work and having to deal with multiple stakeholders and I am unmarried and deal with loneliness quite often. At one point I was working 10-12 hours a day which led to a point where I was so burnt out that I could hardly function. I finally started therapy then and it's been an absolute game changer. The things I've unearthed about myself and the work I've done in therapy and improved my relationship with work and people around me. I feel much more content with myself and I'm able to draw healthy boundaries. I'm able to say no at work without the fear of sounding like a bad employee. In addition to this I do the following things to keep my mental health in check :

1. Constantly in touch with family. Even a phone call with them is a sweet reminder of the fact that I have people who care and would show up for me at the drop of a hat.

2. Excercise. Hate it, curse it, do it. Endorphins can really change your headspace.

3. Have a good circle of friends. I call them up when I'm sad and lonely tell them how I'm feeling. I let them help me. I stay over at their place for a day or two sometimes.

4. Do things I find peace in - walks, cooking, reading.

5. No work before 9 am and after 7 pm. My manager knows this and I only work outside of this timeline if it's a code red situation.

The hard reality is only you're responsible for your happiness. Between choosing better (boundaries, friends, lifestyle) and getting help (therapy) you'll be okay.

Get married.

Please talk to a Therapist it help.

Try working out/ running. The endorphin release will make you feel better. It's a good habit to form.

What are the other career avenues who didn't start coding early/pick computer science and didn't want to get into this situation 3 years down the line? Nothing? It's all over for them?

You need a break. Try to take a week off. Rent a car and drive to some place. Keep doing this once every 2 months. It will keep you going. Don't try to solve the problem as its unsolvable. If you are to meet someone or make friends, you will do along the way.

Quit and relax. I was on the similar boat a couple of months back. Nothing will heal you except saying fuck off to the place and people.

Job mill jaegi. Don’t think too much, just quit!