Dear God Find me here,

Shouldn't say this but I secretly liked when my manager lost her cool over me and all that heat and anger and the frustration... i secretly liked it. Watching her losing her mind. I was sitting there calm absorbing it all responding calmly, like a beast absorbing all the attacks of a big cat. I would definitely do what she said... But watching her losing her mind and behaving all irrationally.. all those real emotions coming at me.. It made me feel something. It's like I'm only able to deeply connect with people when this happens, like i can feel the realness within someone. That is the only thing I can believe is true, that is the only thing I can trust in humans. Cause that anger, frustration is not a lie, it is the purest form of a human.. as it is.. clear as water.. a clean form of a soul. I don't think I'm a psycho, or maybe a good one if at all.

Is anyone else the same or similar ? I'm finding it difficult to find someone like myself... A bit twisted but at the end good.