Can't post this on linkedIn

Nothing makes me happy now, be it something I achieved or something I got.

Part of the reason? I keep comparing things off

Interesting part? I don't put enough effort, but I expect the best

Want some more thrill? i don't do anything properly, fumble everything, and take everything for granted

Just to keep wagging, why does he have something I don't

not improving myself not learning from experiences not doing anything fullheartedly

I have gone into this vicious cycle,

crying for something -> crying for not having raw material for that thing -> crying for not working for that raw material

a dangerous mixture of impostor syndrome and narcissism!

yeah, an average GEM!