Am the worst person to be friends with!
I have a good number of friends and well-wishers in my life, and I'm grateful for that. However, I feel a lack of genuine connection with them.
What kind of connection? The kind shown in movies: being someone's first call, doing silly things together, not hiding anything, etc.
Maybe I've conceptualized a wrong baseline, or perhaps the core issue I'm addressing is valid.
A bit about me: I'm a rather boring, grumpy, and negative person. I love the concept and idea of "hustle" but put in no real effort. I'm incredibly lazy—I literally sleep for 10+ hours daily—self-obsessed, and prone to complaining.
If you ever see me, it's highly likely you'll find me frustrated and annoyed. My facial expressions always convey that, and it might just be a reflection of my inner self: always sad, frustrated, dwelling on past failures. I only enjoy myself when alone, watching something on screen, or making fun of someone (to their face).
Well, that explains why anyone would want to be friends with me, or why even a stranger would hesitate to ask me what time it is.
The boring part: I don't have consistent habits, and I give up if I don't achieve immediate success, so I lack real skills. Furthermore, I'm constantly comparing things, be it career or relationships, living like a race while simultaneously noting and even praying for its outcome.
I have an opinion on everything, I'm narcissistic, and rarely agree with someone fully without reservations. I don't like confrontations, interventions, or reality checks.
I rarely text anyone without a specific context or work-related reason. I do call a few people, but mostly when I'm bored, and when they call, I listen to them half-heartedly.
Even if someone texts me, my first assumption is, "What do they want? Why are they reaching out to me? This isn't work-related," etc.
That's why I lack connections in the workplace as well.
Why am I like this? Honestly, I don't know.
So, why would anyone want to stay in touch with me?
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Seems like you've had an unusual childhood. Try therapy and CBT.
Try one thing - put relationship/ love above all. Find peace when see happy face. Try this once
I really love some health bantering in between friends but it's too much then there is a issue.
Ye toh US moment ho gaya bro, except I'll never insult anyone on their face.
Why do you do so. Narratin a real story, I met some of my college friends few days back and they were doing this, insulting other friends and myself on our faces and for no good reason, basically behaving like trolls, which most boys do and find it cool doing so, idk why!!
So I distanced myself from them. I've no interest left in talking to them again.