Advice mangta mai!

Hey everyone I am Kanha singh form delhi. And I am 18 years old and . let's Come on the topic on which I need Advice and openions by Matured people's like u . So basically currently I am pursuing B.com Hons form delhi university SOL . And yah Every boy have a dream and I also have a dream To be an E-SPORTS Athlete 🫶🥹 but. There i so many problems i have literally nowadays I feel Fully demotivated and Depressed and even I don't have any resources for Start my eSports journey 🙂‍↕️ ! . For ex - Device, Good network, family support, 🥹. But still I am here for my dream . And Its almost 3 years Of my dream to be an E-SPORTS Athlete without Device . I shan't give up And Yes I want to learn Some skills for support my family Because I am single child and My father is watch man so I juts want your advice for What should I do .to fix these problems and Etc ...... 🥹❤️🪽