23M, Introvert
Humble middle class upbringing, parents worked very hard to give me good education. Maintained decent grades throughout. Growing up we had all the money for things we need but nothing would have been left for things we want.
Cracked an off-campus after I graduated. I had no idea what I really wanted to do. Devastated and frustrated my mental health went for a toss.
Worked on myself on figuring out and upskilling. Worked very hard for 7 months. God's grace cracked a good remote job package. Which is dream for kids to achieve at the beginning itself of the career. Especially when you are from tier 3.
I never told anyone how much I make. Many tried many things to get out of me on how much I make. But, I don't know I never felt comfortable answering.
Because I always had this in my mind that money is very powerful energy once you say it out. It's in the Air freely.
Parents/family everyone thought I cracked an avg package what usually students crack from Tier 3 college.
But I was doing well financially. Since I don't have much expense apart from food(that too only because I am bit very serious about my physical fitness)
Everything started going well, I gave many gifts many gifts to my family. Replaced old home electronics with high ends. And lot of furnitures etc etc. In short a lot TBH. Then they noticed that I cracked a big one.
As someone who had very humble beginnings getting these things to home felt unreal. My parents are very proud. I have exceeded their expectations of doing what's best for family in all the ways at this age.
As I mentioned the only thing where I personally spend on is on food. Apart from it i don't usually spend on myself. I don't have any much friends/girlfriend to hang out every now and then.
All I spent was giving family better quality of life and saving up to take risky bets in businesses. I always wanted to do something other than just job.
I keep failing but I keep trying.
But, recently I started to feel I was better of when I was student.
Every conversation I have with my family somewhere it keeps rebounding to how much money do I really make. Now even I try to have normal conversation with anyone it will be transactional someway. They always keep mentioning what we should get next, next next.
At some point, I thought it will stop at some point as we had it all. Nothing much necessary now I can focus on my business full on.
But now it keeps coming some of the other thing. Everyday literally
Now I feel very sad that they never asked are you really happy with job?,
do you want to study more?,
are you still figuring out?
Have you bought anything for yourself which you wanted to when you were growing?
I never bought anything expensive for myself. The phone I use is of 5yr old. I don't feel peer pressure. But friends I see are different, expensive phones, vacations, parties and what not.
They didn't give much to family as I did(please don't judge here. Saying it without ego i swear)
I don't know how to say them this is enough I want to do something hence I need to save. Then they might say what's less in this job. We are doing well.
I feel my parents never understood me. I don't have much interest too in getting things for just myself. But, at least they could have asked.
I don't know how to speak about this to them. Nor share with my friends/anyone.
Am I overthinking here?
Is it normal?
Have anyone experienced the same how did you deal with it?