Itβs been a while since I felt great, but it was not how it used to be now. 3 years back I had a breakup with my ex, and it deeply saddened me at the fact that I turned bitter. The reason is simple, the effort was wasted. For 4 years, the relationship broke in front of my eyes and I couldnβt do a thing about it. This made me question the efforts that were poured into the relationship. Her reaction at the end made me even more furious and made me feel like she was the one who ruined my life. To make things even worse, she moved on quickly and started seeing guys, and I was still mentally stuck on our breakup. After knowing this, I literally considered her as my ENEMY, who didnβt care about me, my feelings and my efforts.
Days passed and things started getting worse, and I was feeling more painful and angry about my situation and also, day by day, she started enjoying her life. I blamed her for everything and wished that she would never come into my life until I saw the Vinland Saga series (especially season 2).
Vinland saga thought me something that I was looking for unintentionally. Maybe a relationship, maybe I might get hurt. Maybe she didnβt fix or care about it. But in the end, I was the one who only suffered and suffered because I didnβt accept the fact that this relationship had been over and things had changed. Instead, I made her a villain, which is something the same as my boy, Thorfinn, experienced too. Filled with vengeance to kill and lost zeal for living when he didnβt get what he wanted. Life long he considered someone as his enemy, where the enemy himself didnβt seem to care and had his own purpose. When Thorfinn realized that he had life to live, and he didnβt have to hurt anyone since HE had NO ENEMY, it literally echoed in my ears. Even after that episode ended, I couldnβt stop thinking that everything about this relationship had been changed, and I am the only person holding on to grudges.
After realizing this, I was the happiest person. Yes, it was painful, yes. Yes, it broke my heart. Yes, she moved on quicker than me. Yes, my efforts were wasted, but the thing is that I was never obligated to suffer, and she is not my enemy at all. This one dialogue from Thorfinn made me a better person and, in fact, a healthier mental man.
Thank you, THORFINN!!β₯οΈ