I am demotivated to even leave my bed today
My current salary is 18LPA. I have 4 years of experience and work in operations at this place. Honestly, my weekly workload is brutal but I am very numb to it. When I do see people out hiking on a Saturday, I feel that I am doing injustice to myself and playing the wrong hand.
More and more though, the thought of making weekend plans exhausts me a bit. I have dreams of exploring the city today, trying new cafes and having the freedom to live my life outside work. But the mindset of "pehle thoda aaram kar lete hain" doesn't leave me.
My room is an absolute mess and whatever chores are needed from my side, I actively ignore. I also lack any motivation to focus on my hobbies and see my personal life grow. I just have my Saturday slipping away in bed purely for nothing.
I also look at my weekend choices from time to time and go into existential debate of why we plan the things that we do. This has come to a point where I really do not understand my relationship with rest and why we crave it so much.
For me at this point, weekends are just a recovery period. There is very little energy left, and really no limit to how much sleep you need. And I just don't see a point in making plans anymore.
You're like me. I see others on instagram - exploring cafes , hiking etc etc but I also absolutely love rotting in my bed.
I've come to the realisation that just because everyone else does that I have to do it too.
We have this notion that taking a trip , or doing something objectively fun is fun. But you can have fun doing absolutely nothing too. Not everyone is wired the same way you know
Go for a solo trip not a leisure one , if possible outside of India. Total new expirence or insipration is what is part of your brain is asking for , dont listen to the one which is asking you to not leave your comfort zone.
Hit reset. Reframe your thoughts and mindset. Create an alternate personality for your personal experiences
Why you thinking like this atleast you have that much good salary motivation to work....I am working at 10.6 lpa with 10.5 yoe and doing same 8 am till 8 pm work.....in my case getting demotivated for salary and work both
